usually i have my way with words, or writing.
today my mouth cant seem to let them out,
nor do my fingertips want tp type to show my heart either.
there's so many thoughts rolling and jumping around in my mind.
and such happiness in my heart that i feel i need to burst.
so forgive me if my words and sentences seem to take circles,
i just need to share. 
today i sat in a room with a group of people
a group of people that are family to me.
that have things in common with me
that i feel as if i cant find anywhere else.
a group of people that when i leave the room my face is glowing with joy.
how thankful am i for this. so thankful.
but i have taken them for granted.
my heart was angry with them, hurt by some, and i held it against them.
but today..
my heart dropped to my feet by the presence of God.
Him telling me
"these people are your backbone T,
your hearts are strung together to endure things through each other.
you will suffer, and be joyful through everything that is thrown at you,
together."
and Him also reminding me how much they truely meant to me.
wanting so much more of the Lord.
wanting to be able to hug Him and thank him for the awakening he gave me.
God placed opportunity in my hands today.
to express my passion for Him in my gifts.
not only that, but to grow and fellowship with some of the most amazing people ever.
for me to know that each of us were called to be in this group,
makes me feel unbelievably happy. my heart was being
worn out, torn up and tossed around.
i felt as if i couldnt hold it up anymore.
praying everyday, but thinking, is this meaningful?
why do i feel like its not when my heart yearns for the
fullfilling love of my Father.
it still felt heavy, as if i had let people down,
or people were seeing me differently.
i had to remind myself that it doesnt matter what others are thinking,
it doesnt matter what their view of me was.
if people want to talk about me in ways that are false, then let it be tara.
because i am here to SERVE GOD.
not to please the being of this world.
but once again, like always,
he CAPTURED my heart.
brought me to my knees in awe of Him.
and He lifted me.
showing me that my heart, mind and soul were ready to jump to the next step.
which lead me to this amazing opportunity at my own church/home.
thank you,
thank you,
thank you God.
my prayer is that my heart will
set my mind on things above
and not on things of this world.
rain down on this FALLEN world i live in. God--- thank you for these girls-
for loving me.
accepting me as i am.
teaching me new things.
and just for being amazing. as for him-
you know how i feel about him.
 thank you.
in his name.
t♥
Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers
will worship the Father
in spirit and truth,
for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks.
God is spirit,
and his worshipers must worship
in spirit and in truth.
--john4:23-24
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